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Tuesday, 30 January 2018

Love is you, you are love.



It's valentines day,
I don't even know who is valentine
Or is it a place or a food.
I don't care.
I don't need a special day, to celebrate love.
I have been doing it, ever since I met you.
Love is whenever I think about you,
That is every second.
So every second is valentines day for me.
I won't give you a rose,
That's what everybody does.
I will give you a hug, a kiss, and a hug again.
And spend my time with you.
No gifts can be more expensive than time.
I won't kneel down and confess my love for you,
That only happens in films.
But I will hold your hand,
Kiss your ears and whisper
" love is you, you are love."

Saturday, 5 September 2015

When wind blows, leaves sway with it.
When wind is still, leaves also stay still.
Leaves move not by choice,
But wind makes it move.
What is different between us and leaves?
If we follow without checking our conscience.
After all, leaves are brainless
And what are we, if our brains are like metals
Sticking up to every magnetic forces?

Tenzin and his teaching job.


                                              
I was just looking around and drinking my latte, waiting for my friend Tenzin who was supposed to meet me at Moon Peak cafĂ©. Since he is a teacher, I thought he might have got hold up in class or something. In the mean time, I enjoyed the beautiful sunset that I could see across the lofty mountains. An American couple was sitting across a table from me; they were discussing how they should manage their money once they get back home as they may have probably used most of their savings here in Mcleod Ganj. The man was saying, “Maybe I should work in my father’s company as he always wanted” and she was saying, “no, you can’t. You will not come home early and you will be away a lot of times if you work in your father’s company.” The man was shaking his head and said, “no, I won’t. I promise you that I will be at home as much as I can. Honey, you know that we need to earn some money as our baby is coming soon; we need to make sure he gets all the things that we never had in our life.” When I heard it, I took a quick look at the woman and noticed her small protruding belly. Once I knew that they were having a baby, I stopped eavesdropping on their conversation.

Later, Tenzin showed up. He sat on the chair across the table and said, “hey, I am so sorry, we got hold up in an emergency meeting.” He has been a teacher at Tibetan Children’s Village (T.C.V) School for over 10 years now. We grew up together in that school. He used to say that the reason for his choice to be a teacher is that he wanted to give it back to the community by serving as a teacher. But I have always wondered why he is lying to himself. His teaching job was the last option he had after his graduation. First, he tried to get a job in some companies, but he got rejected right within few minutes into those interviews. Then he tried to get a job in Central Tibetan Administration (CTA) but his Tibetan language skills were so poor that he came last at the entrance test for CTA recruitment examination. Finally, like many youngsters who have graduated with a piece of paper called degree in their hand but with an empty brain, he decided to go for Teachers’ Training Institute under CTA’s Department of Education at Bhuntar, Manali. After one and half years, he got a job as a social studies teacher for junior section at TCV. I still remember Tenzin telling me before going for training that he thinks a teacher’s profession is the most stable job in our community. So sometimes, I wonder why we lack good teachers in our community. May be our youngsters weren’t inspired from school days to become a teacher. I don’t know what went wrong or I am not sure what I think is right as I don’t have either a degree or knowledge to be a teacher.

Tenzin looked at me and said “Do you know what happened at the school today?” He looked like a child too eager to tell his parents what has happened in school. So to let the time pass and also let his coffee go smooth, I asked what has happened. He put down his cup and said, “a student was beaten by a teacher who has anger issues. He broke the student’s hand. It was not the first time he has done so. Earlier, he knocked a student out of consciousness by continuously punching him on the face, but this time, the student with broken hand is son of a rich family in McLeod Ganj. The father is a Member of Parliament; he came up to the school demanding the teacher to be expelled. So we had an emergency meeting about it.”
“What was decided during the meeting?” I asked. “Well, some teachers supported him saying that even though corporal punishment is banned in TCV School, some students need to be guided with little beating or else they won’t listen to the teachers. They further added that if the teacher is expelled from the school for beating a Tibetan parliamentarian’s son, then what about others who raise their hands on students who have come from Tibet and have no one looking after them. The director and principal were confused. In the end they decided to transfer the teacher to another branch of TCV in south India.”  He took a sip of his coffee and continued “well these days, if a student is not studying, teachers are blamed, but if a teacher raises his hand on a student to make him study, the teacher is blamed for resorting to wrong methods. I am lucky that I am not so ill-tempered. If a student misbehaves, I just deduct some of their marks. This approach has improved some students but some students don’t care about marks; they are the ones I am most bothered about.” With a sad face, he lit a cigarette. I also lit one and said “maybe you should try to talk to them personally, listen to their problems and give some advices. Try to be their friend, not a boss.” “Well, if I try to be their friend, they will think that I am weak or something. I am sure they will take advantage of me. They don’t even respect teachers these days.”
At that time the American couple left their table as a bunch of loud domestic tourists came to sit at a table behind them. Some of them were staring at the American woman. Well, staring at a woman as if they are an object in museum is an unpleasant habit of many indecent men in India. Maybe the woman got uncomfortable with their stare. So they left grumbling “so uncivilized….”. I took a last drag from the cigarette and stubbed it in the ashtray.

“Well, maybe if you try to reach them genuinely, they may respond well and listen to you. About the respect part, you should earn it. Being a teacher doesn’t necessarily mean respect come along with your salary. You will have to earn it. When we were in school, we don’t respect every teacher with genuine feeling. We used to respect them out of fear. But we respect and love some teachers and we still remember and admire them,” I said, trying to put some sense into him even though I was not really sure I was saying the right thing.
He looked at the sunset for a while and said “don’t worry mate; I am soon going for a trip to England with some students for a student’s exchange program. And I am planning to run away once the program is done. I will go to Sweden from there and seek asylum. My uncle is in Sweden and he told it is best for me.” Well for once he said something for which I didn’t have anything to say other than “well good luck, you shouldn’t have become a teacher at all.”
After a month, I heard that he had run away from the airport while he was coming back. No one knows where he has gone. TCV was so embarrassed that they had to officially apologize to the British Consulate and the school responsible for the program.


Tuesday, 1 September 2015

Here I am stuck in rain,
Not by choice but by accident.
What about those stuck in life,
Not by accident but by ignorance and ego?

Saturday, 29 August 2015

the wind is blowing east
few leaves on the nearly dead tree are swaying east
papers and plastics on the ground are being blown east.
but I with my conscience walked west.

Thursday, 9 July 2015

Rain, you can slit through wind,
Explode after hitting the ground.
Don't you dare to wet me
And let my clothes smell.
You can soak a beautiful girl
And admire  her exposed breast,
Yet, don't you dare to let her catch cold.

I asked, You replied. - a poem with my friend choezom


The wind blows freely,
The rain falls at it's will.
But, why my heart feels a thing
And says another thing to you?
-freely wind cannot blow,
That wind directs rain
Nature, reasons and circumstances
Do hinder the flow.

A fallen leaf, sways where wind takes it.
On the tree, it is part of something.
On the ground, what it is? A trash?
Or may be, part of a larger existence?
-the moment you sway,
Belongs nowhere but decay
That fallen leaf exist
For nothing and no one.

The sun is reddish,
Showing its end over the far away hills.
Why does it have to go?
Why can't it stay up forever?
-the sun shines to set,
After-all humans live to die.
If not, it is stagnation,
Maybe - moon won't allow it.

A lone tree standing straight,
Amid a barren dead land.
Is it pride or solitude?
Or maybe waiting for rain?
-a lone tree is meant to be,
Not a choice nor fate.
Like sun, is solitary
In fullness it stand.